Ruins

In Our Ruins

When I was very young, my grandfather died in a car accident.  Well, that’s not entirely true.  He actually survived the car accident.  But he did not survive the medical care that followed.  There was some talk, to my understanding, that there were grounds for a medical malpractice suit.  However, I know for a fact there was a great deal …

Reborn

We Are Reborn

“This must be what it feels like when you begin to die.” That thought hit me one day when I was sitting alone in my room in the hospital.  It wasn’t a melancholy thought: it wasn’t despairing.  It was more of a stop-breathing, “whoa” moment.  Because it was true. I had just finished a week-long stint of a lethal chemo …

Violent Love

A Violent Love

"For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God." (1) How many times has this scripture, and those like it, been used to condemn God as small, petty and all-too-human?  This is a favorite of atheists and skeptics the world over: jealousy is a human emotion, and a baser one at that.  It is an emotion common in ...
Baby Being Held

Joy in the Holding

So here I am, in another chemo treatment.  I’ve had an IV hooked up to me for several days now, and one bag of glorified poison trying to take out my bladder for the better part of 24 hours.  (It hasn’t succeeded.) The doctors and nurses are once again beside themselves with my attitude, and with the lack of side …

Disappointment and Discouragement

Where We Go From Here

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick.”(1)  What a placid way to discuss how the venom of disappointment poisons the soul. Every week I ask God what He wants me to write about on this blog.  And every week I get an answer.  This week the answer was “disappointment and discouragement.”  Sometimes I have experiences after learning the theme that help …